I have to keep a close handle on the drinking, I know that. But it's helping me sleep at night. I'm trying to build a strong foundation with the girls. They are my world.

Wanna know what I did? Really? I did NOTHING! I wasn't there, I didn't pay attention to her, I put myself first, it was always about me! Ask your ladies, they will tell you... That's NOT how it goes.

Wanna know what's funny, she kept coming back all these years and apologizing to me! She did NOTHING wrong and apologized to me! Can you believe it? What an angel! Can you see why my heart is breaking? I lost... everything. I did too little too late. She doesn't believe me this time, when I said I would change. I said I would one too many times and didn't.

I don't blame her. She did what I taught her to do... She stood up for herself. <img src="/forums/images/graemlins/kewl.gif" alt="" />