I'm not sure what to truly think at this moment. I did some soul searching this morning. I did some praying, I did find a little peace. I still come home and I feel guilty and I feel sad. I'm just trying to seperate her from my heart. I'm trying not to care.

That sounded cruel, didn't it? I', taking things as they go. Forcing myself to enjoy my moments and not think about the sad. I have plan my future and at this point it's up to her if she wants to be in it. If she wants to ***** me that's great, if she doesn't she doesn't. I'm not going to allow anymore sorrow in.

One last thought, if any of you are of the Christian faith, please put in a couple of good words for me. I think he's listening and the sorrow is getting easier to cope with, but I could use some help. Because unfortunately, I am still only human. LOL