Been debating for a week whether or not to post this on here. Came to the realization that I need as much input as possible on how to deal with this. I value everybody's opinions on this board, even if I don't agree on certain issues. A little background....

I'm an only child from my Dad's 2nd marriage. My parents were together for 34 years. He was 42 when I was born (my mom was 22 <img src="/forums/images/graemlins/lol.gif" alt="" /> can you say "Go Daddy") He was a carpenter/general contractor and a musician most of his life. He served in the Army from '53-'59, said he was lucky. Missed both Korea and Vietnam. He was a great man and a good father. An excellent example of a husband. He wasn't perfect, but if he was wrong, or could possibly be wrong, he admitted it. I learned how to ride a bike, tie my shoes, swing a hammer, how to work my a$$ off, punctuality, honesty, integrity, everything, from him.

He died on October 27th at 12:08 am. God I miss him. Cancer finally won. Took 5+ years. Tough SOB, I tell ya.

What I'm struggling with are the feelings. Anger, sorrow, remorse, joy.... you name it. Anger for some the things that were wrong between he and I growing up. Sorrow for obvious reasons. Remorse for not having made everything right that I could have and for things left unsaid. Joy for knowing he's in a better place and not in pain anymore.

Guess I'm looking for insight from those that have been thru this, or if you have ideas on how to move past it.

Thanks in advance guys (and Margie and LadyWest)

Larry